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Saturday, June 24, 2006





Here are few pictures from the Built to Spill show we went to in San Francisco on Thursday. At the beginning of the show, the following conversation took place:

Jason: Thats Doug Martsch, the lead singer right there.
Will: Damn he is old!
Jason: Yeah.
Mike: He looks about 37 or something.
Will: Like fourty something.
Jason: He's pretty old. He's like Russ' age.
Mike and Will: Yeah, Russ' age.

Tuesday, June 13, 2006

Russ asked the Brotherhood today if we could do anything in life and limits, talent, money and education was not an issue, what would we do?

My first thought was that I would just live life investing myself into people. I was thinking I would have all this free time to do that if I didn't have to work, but then I realized that was a bunch of crap, because if I really wanted to do that, I would be doing that now at my place of work. So what would change if I didn't have to work and I was rich?

I know if I was rich, I would over indulge. I would buy nice cars, a big house and a bunch of nice things. I would give money away too, but I think it would only serve as a means to make myself feel better about over indulging. In a way, buying off my guilt.

If I was to take matters into my own hands and own my future as it is right now, I think I would go back to school and become a teacher. I respect what Jason and Mitra do, and I am envious. But, truth be told, I am to scared to make the short time sacrifice of selling my house, moving in with my family and quitting my job so that I could go back to school. It's not a risk that I am willing to take at this time. (Kudos to Tim for taking such a big step.)

Which makes me wonder if it is a sin to just live the status quo of life? Never really achieving anything great, never pursuing your dreams or taking any big risks, but just settling with the minimum. You know, living in that realm of "good enough" or "not bad". Well, I am sure that it isn’t a sin, but I think of the story Jesus tells of the three stewards that are given money from their master. Of the three, the one who buried the money so that he didn’t risk losing it was the evil one.

In living life, I was taught early on in Christianity, that you must deny yourself and die to the flesh in order to live. So is that where we find life? But then again, Jesus says live life to the fullest, which I tend to use as a ticket to over indulge, in which, I never deny my self of anything.

Thinking about Jesus’ life, I know that he believed in love and that he put his life on it. Maybe that's where life is?...

Sunday, June 04, 2006

There must be something about the smell of the ocean and the taste of sea salt that makes Gracie go wild. Yesterday and today, when we took her out the beach, she absolutely went nuts. Forget the shovel and bucket for sand castles, that girl needs running shoes. For an hour straight she ran down the beach, up the beach, into the water, out of the water, around the water, back down the beach, back up the beach, back into the water, and back out of the water. That was about an hour ago and she is knocked out asleep now.

There is so much joy in watching your children play and have fun. For a long time I use to believe it was “what you did for God” that please Him the most. Not that our labors earned us salvation, but that was what made Him happy. Now that I am a father, I believe now more than ever, that living life to the fullest and having fun is what pleases Him the most.

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