Monday, April 07, 2008
I did not sleep well at all last night due to some nightmares. I had three and they have left me kind of shaken and disturbed. I keep thinking about them and what they could possibly mean. I hold a lot of stock in dreams. I find that they can be quite prophetic, visions if you will.
The first dream I had was about myself and three others who were dressed up as Chewbacca, Princess Laya and Luke Skywalker. The three others were not the actual characters from Star Wars the movie, but rather they were merely pretending to be. We were on an elevator that broke down and then without warning, the elevator began to plummet. I felt my heart jump into my throat as the elevator was on a fast track to impact at the bottom of whatever. I specifically remember looking at the floor of the elevator and thinking to myself, this is how I am going to dye, I hope it doesn’t hurt. Then the elevator came to a stop without any impact, at which point I woke up relieved it was just a dream. What has stuck with me the most about this dream is the idea or thought of “pretending” and “falling”.
The second dream was the worse of the three. I was driving a pick-up truck and I heard Gracie yell. As I looked in the rear view mirror, I saw Gracie jumping out of the truck because Jacob had gotten out of his car seat and had fallen on to the road. I slammed on the breaks and ran as fast as I could to pick up the kids before they got hit by on-coming cars. Jacob appeared fine, but I rushed him the hospital anyways afraid that he may have suffered some internal injuries. The next thing I remember was not knowing what to do with him. I didn’t know which floor to take him and when I found a nurse, I began to cry. She said he was fine and everything was going to be ok. I then I woke up. Sweating.
The last dream was about me interviewing for the promotion I recently put in for. I was lead into a room with a computer to complete the written exam of the interview. I wanted to sit there and gather my thoughts before I began to write. Before I knew it, I was given a five minute warning to complete the exam. I began to panicked and open up my folder with the essay questions in it. I found the questions to be easier than I had expected but now I didn’t have the time to write a response to the questions. Then when it came to the oral board part of the interview, the interviewers left thinking there was no one left to interview. They had to be brought back to conduct the interview with me. It was at that moment that I realized I was under dressed with no tie on. As I gave my first answer to the question I could see that the interviewers were just going through the motions and really were not considering me for the promotion. The alarm went off. 5:05am.
I think the first dream was a prophetic message about my faith. Pretending will most definitely lead to falling; however, thanks to the grace of God, He can prevent that impact that leads to death.
The second dream about Jacob must be about his upcoming procedure, which has put a lot of anxiety and stress on Audrey and I. I think we both feel a lot fear due to having no control over the situation and having to put our trust in God and the professional medical doctors and nurses who are strangers to us.
The last dream possibly could be about my insecurity within my job. A lot of my worth seems to be wrapped up within my profession and to not be promoted would be kick to my ego and would also a form of rejection. What I guess need to remember is that I work for God and it is God who will appoint me to supervisor if he feels fit. If not, it is because he has other plans for me within my current position and I need to be ok with that.
The first dream I had was about myself and three others who were dressed up as Chewbacca, Princess Laya and Luke Skywalker. The three others were not the actual characters from Star Wars the movie, but rather they were merely pretending to be. We were on an elevator that broke down and then without warning, the elevator began to plummet. I felt my heart jump into my throat as the elevator was on a fast track to impact at the bottom of whatever. I specifically remember looking at the floor of the elevator and thinking to myself, this is how I am going to dye, I hope it doesn’t hurt. Then the elevator came to a stop without any impact, at which point I woke up relieved it was just a dream. What has stuck with me the most about this dream is the idea or thought of “pretending” and “falling”.
The second dream was the worse of the three. I was driving a pick-up truck and I heard Gracie yell. As I looked in the rear view mirror, I saw Gracie jumping out of the truck because Jacob had gotten out of his car seat and had fallen on to the road. I slammed on the breaks and ran as fast as I could to pick up the kids before they got hit by on-coming cars. Jacob appeared fine, but I rushed him the hospital anyways afraid that he may have suffered some internal injuries. The next thing I remember was not knowing what to do with him. I didn’t know which floor to take him and when I found a nurse, I began to cry. She said he was fine and everything was going to be ok. I then I woke up. Sweating.
The last dream was about me interviewing for the promotion I recently put in for. I was lead into a room with a computer to complete the written exam of the interview. I wanted to sit there and gather my thoughts before I began to write. Before I knew it, I was given a five minute warning to complete the exam. I began to panicked and open up my folder with the essay questions in it. I found the questions to be easier than I had expected but now I didn’t have the time to write a response to the questions. Then when it came to the oral board part of the interview, the interviewers left thinking there was no one left to interview. They had to be brought back to conduct the interview with me. It was at that moment that I realized I was under dressed with no tie on. As I gave my first answer to the question I could see that the interviewers were just going through the motions and really were not considering me for the promotion. The alarm went off. 5:05am.
I think the first dream was a prophetic message about my faith. Pretending will most definitely lead to falling; however, thanks to the grace of God, He can prevent that impact that leads to death.
The second dream about Jacob must be about his upcoming procedure, which has put a lot of anxiety and stress on Audrey and I. I think we both feel a lot fear due to having no control over the situation and having to put our trust in God and the professional medical doctors and nurses who are strangers to us.
The last dream possibly could be about my insecurity within my job. A lot of my worth seems to be wrapped up within my profession and to not be promoted would be kick to my ego and would also a form of rejection. What I guess need to remember is that I work for God and it is God who will appoint me to supervisor if he feels fit. If not, it is because he has other plans for me within my current position and I need to be ok with that.
